School

School has officially started!! For those of you who don't know, these are the classes I will be taking this semester:

-Acts and the Roman World*
-The Love of God*
-Job*
-Prophets^
-Hermeneutics II
-Life of Christ
-Acts
-1 Corinthians
-Ruth, Ecclesiastes, Song of Solomon*
-Islam*
-Bible Basis of Missions
-Theology^
-Anthropology/Harmartiology
-Christology

^=Class I am currently in *=Elective

I have already been learning and thinking through a lot of different things. It's so neat to see God work. I went and talked with one of my deans today and we talked through a lot of things that made me realize that I do everything in my power to fix my problems or prevent them before they happen because I am afraid to fail...which is a pride issue. I know in my head that I can't change myself, that I can't fix myself, that my failures do not cause God to love me any less and my triumphs don't cause Him to love me any more...but my heart hasn't learned this yet. I still try. I still want to fix me...I still think at some point I will be perfect...like I'm climbing a ladder instead of simply walking. I can't make myself any better. I can only look at Him, depend on Him, let HIM change me. It's funny how hard we try. It's funny how our flesh can convince us of so many lies. But God is faithful to grow us and to reveal truth to us on HIS timing. As much as I want to absorb everything possible, I need to be content learning at His pace and knowing that He is graciously showing me what I can handle at the time. It's a lesson I feel I will probably be learning for the rest of my life. But I'm ready to learn. :)